on January 1st 1970
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If I were dead, I wouldn't be able to see.If I were dead, I wouldn't be able to feel.If I were dead, he'd never raise his hand to me again.If I were dead, his words wouldn't cut as deep as they do.If I were dead, I'd be beautiful and I wouldn't be so...ugly.I'm not dead...but I wish I was.
*This is a dark YA/NA stand-alone, full-length novel. Contains violence.
Ugly was in many ways a hard limit book for me. The first half pulverised my heart and had me spiralling fast into a gruelling pit of dark and depressive emotions – anger being the strongest of all, as many times I had to stop myself cursing out loud at 3 o’clock in the damn morning.
Domestic abuse is a very real issue, but in Lily’s case it was downright horrific and as much as I wanted to scream at the injustices aplenty I couldn’t put this book down. It was like witnessing the worst kind of crime – you feel completely helpless but you can’t not watch the horrors unfolding before your very eyes. The first 50% was that book… The one where you cry and rant and scream, and ask yourself why you are reading it, only to realise that Margaret McHeyzer has written a story so profound and so bloody well that you can’t help but to battle your broken heart through to the finish line, and trust me when I say, the pain was worth it.
From physical and psychological childhood abuse to a violent and abusive marriage, Lily has never known what it’s like to feel wanted, or loved. Never known how it is to be free from the confines of a controlling male figure. For the reader her insight into the mind of a victim is eye opening and even though I wanted to scream at her to run, her acceptance of her situation made for a compelling albeit disturbing read that highlighted her determination to be a better person even if it was for all the wrong reasons.
For a time Trent was her saviour. A friendly face at the school bus stop who often gave her flowers and a kind smile. Learning of her turbulent home life, Trent rescues the girl he is falling for and takes her home to his family. All seems well for a while until the cracks start to show and it soon becomes clear that not everything is as rosy as it seems.
Closing a door on her abusive Father opens another one of opportunities and new beginnings, but that dream is short-lived when her saviour becomes the monster and life takes another dramatic and twisted turn.
With age and maturity comes a stark realisation that her normal is anything but when she finds her first real friendship in Shayne, a young woman whom she befriends at her first place of employment whilst saving for college.
Lily knows in her heart that she can only take so much, but finding the strength to fight back has never been in her nature – that is until she finds that she is no longer alone as a band of very concerned and kind-hearted people show Lily just how much she is loved, and just maybe give her the tools she needs to break free once and for all.
Ugly is a twisted yet compelling read that will hit every nerve. Not only is it completely honest and written with fearless determination, it also makes a strong and very clear statement. I can’t say I loved this book, it isn’t one that warms the heart but it will definitely pack a punch and have you mulling it over long after the final page.